Look Alive People! Look Alive!!!

Okay okay, sorry about the "slit-my-wrists-depressing" last post. And thanks to my amazing friends who are so encouraging and incredibly hot. Here's something a little less Debbie-Downer (10 points and a Coke Slurpee if you get the reference). I am now totally hooked on Grey's Anatomy. Seriously, I get excited, I cry, I laugh, I get angry (though not as angry as Tasha, who seems to lose her mind at least 12 times during every episode!) and I love it. I was determined not to give in but once I saw one episode, I was just done. AND, whenever it's on here, it's a double-bill so we get 2 episodes. Man, this is the life.

We also got a new couch yesterday (pics to come)!! Apparently the old one was the source of my new bed-bug bites, so our landlord ponied up a new one. Yeah, it's a futon. Whatever though, can't complain much cause it's brand new and free. So woo hoo!

I discovered some old pictures from last year on Kiki's digi-cam so they're up on my Facebook. AND, check out this cute picture from when Tasha's friend (and now MY friend) Marcelle came to visit! Isn't she a doll?! ISN'T MY HAIR JUST STUPID LONG?!

Another little piece of news is the 2 other girls in my department gave notice on Friday. Yeah, they're done at the end of the month, leaving me with 15 guys. I am now the ONLY source of estrogen in my whole department (and if you know anything about my hormone imbalance, that's not saying much!). It will be interesting to say the least ...

That's all I got for now, so I am going to pepper this post with some pictures and then head home for Shealagh's home made Bandera bread!!!

More than Stoked for BP's like food,
Jen

I Haven't Been Myself Lately...

So, things are crazy and it's hard not to get discouraged. Work has been uncomfortable since the week I started - I won't go into detail because it's unnecessary, but I've had some trouble with a couple of the guys on my team. I feel like I can't rest with the situation hanging over me like a giant reminder of my past. I haven't done anything I regret ... but I hate that I considered it. I'm not as strong as I think I am ... and it's good that I learned this now before returning to Canada thinking I've got it all together.

Waiting for "him" is hard ... especially when I thought I had found him ... it's stupid and I hate being one of those girls who blogs about her "nowhere to be seen future husband" but I need to write it out of my system. So, here it is. I feel him ... I can sense him - not in a physical way but in my soul. I ache for him - not just to find him but to pray for his protection, for his heart - I ache to pray him out of the situations I know he's facing. And I can't see him anywhere. I'm not even looking anymore because I know I'll just know it when we meet - but I'm discouraged by being surrounded by jack-ass guys all day who turn guy-girl relationships into something so perverse that it makes me sick. I'm starting to lose hope. Not that he's out there and not that I'll find him - I'm losing hope that he'll be what I want him to be when I actually find him.

What if he's just a huge disappointment ? What if he's just like the others ... ?

More than Overanalyzing This Situation,
Jen

Sorry for the lack of Postage

I've been mental busy with work and the girls and living an extremely non-busy life - so I haven't posted much. And I'm lazy. Really lazy. So here's some pics of recent events - maybe if I post enough pictures you won't notice the serious lack of content on my blog. Maybe.

Okay .. nevermind - the PC I'm on won't let me post pictures today ... so we'll have to do it another day. Sorry everyone - cause I know you were really excited and all.

More than hoping this works next time,
Jen